Well, this PC...is...well...sllllooooooowwwwwww; extremely, surely, overly, worse-than-a-turtle-with-a-broken-leg slow. Dad says there's some sort of virus here...so this one's gonna be reformatted again; tomorrow, I suppose. And after this computer is fixed, I'll be moving to my new home :D I'll redirect this one to that.

I know a lot of people will tell me to keep my tabulas but sadly, li'l 'ol me can't keep more than one journal...even though I have my own lj (don't bother looking at it, there's nothing there). The only reason I have one is because these two have been "inviting" me. They say livejournal layouts (or whatever it's called) are one of the hardest to manage. That's another reason why I have one. I wanna see how hard it really is *nod nod* Anyway, I can't bear to have journals of mine forgotten or not used or empty or become like a ghost (always there but never seen XD). I'm already having trouble keeping this blog up, much less keep another one. Oh well. I can always delete my lj.

Anyway, let's change the subject.

So, one day, I went down and sat in front of the computer. My sisters happily informed me that the PC was running slow like hell and that I would surely be pissed off and kill the darn thing...being usually the first to beat the keyboard (and monitor on some occassions) to death. But then, I was kinda disoriented at the moment. Besides, I wanted to prove them wrong. So I continued and used the computer anyway.

Well, they were right. It was slow (like you click "Start" and you wait for 15mins just to get the PC to respond). And the pages continued to show "Cannot Find Server" again and again. I expected myself to scream my cursed life to the world but it didn't happen.

It was surprising and I felt pleased with myself because I wasn't shouting curses to the PC...like what I usually do to items that won't work for me -- we're all (please note the sarcasm ebbing from that) SO close to each other that I've given them names: meet Mousey-man and Boardy-keyboy.

My mom once told me I had an "artist's temper". It was written on that assignment my parents had to do for CSL. I've been asking a lot of people this: what is an artist's temper????? I figured it had something to do with my constant conversation with the house appliances ^^;;

Of course, though, there were some moments that I wanted to get the kitchen knife and throw it towards this PC but hey, I'm happy I had control. What was irritating was that my sisters kept insisting that I was angry at this computer. Oh no, I wasn't. I was angry at them for even asking!!!!

Well, I passed that test of patience XD

Oh, and another came to me today.

My imouto and okaasan had a voice concert to go to in UP because my imouto's piano teacher was gonna be in it. But since today was the Ateneo GS fair...and my otouto going to that school...okaasan ended up being too exhausted to go to the concert.

(I'm a bad child. I didn't go to the fair at all XD)

So, okaasan asked me to take her place instead.

I wasn't doing anything nor did I have plans but I was really pissed off. Sure I understand her predicament. Sure, I'd go to any concert they want me to. I have no whims against music. I love it, no matter what kind of music it is. The problem is...they asked me to go at the spur of the moment.

I hate it when people around me schedule things that include me without telling me beforehand. I'm a "planning" type of person. I always have plans, always. I never leave NOR do anything without plans.

It's not about having things organized. In fact, it's okay for me if they don't follow the plan. There just has to be one.

I know this is so shallow. I don't even know why I'm so angry when they told me "the dreadful news". *sigh* I guess all I'm saying is that they should think before they act. My aunt even told me that okaasan couldn't have predicted that this would happen but I disagreed. Okaasan could've predicted the consequences. Heck, I could've predicted what would've happened and I'm not even there!!!!

And besides, I had no choice. I need to go and fill okaasan's place. Whether I go or not, the results would be the same. If I went, then I'd be irritated and would probably criticize the whole show (in fact, I did). If I didn't, the whole house (except my imouto) would treat me like as if I'm the worst person alive ever for weeks just because I didn't follow their wishes and in the end, I'll be feeling bad for myself -- I get guilty too easily! Either way, I'd still feel bad.

I decided to go. Oh wait, I didn't. My neechan decided that I go. Hmph, and they even asked *rolls eyes* Okaasan thanked me for going in her place with that tone that I hate so much. You know, that tone that says "pity-me" along with it's "puppy-dog-eyes". Really, please don't act like you'll die without me because if you do, I really will let you die. Che, stand up and find your ground!!!! (This doesn't necessarily mean you, reader ^^;; My apolgies if you are offended)

I hate being thanked when I do something against my will. I don't deserve it. I'd rather be insulted. But then, it's not like I get thanks when I do something nice through my will *shrugs*

So, well, I went and criticized the whole show (both good and bad -- it's a critique not an insult). One thing I can conclude: the performers are good. They're not world class as of the moment but they have the potential to be.

During the intermission though, my aunt -- she's one of the closed-minded people that surround me, just like okaasan and otousan -- asked me what I think about my imouto. I told her she was IS a good person. And then she started asking me why.

I didn't want to answer her so I gave her sarcastic answers like "She's a child of God, that's why." and "She's my sister."

(Oh, and my imouto is the person you can consider as the black sheep of the family.)

I was pretty sure that the reason why my aunt was asking was because I told her my imouto was a good person. She probably wanted me to tell her how much a black sheep my imouto is *rolls eyes* And take note, my gut feeling is always right.

She asked me why I didn't want to answer such a simple question. I told her that it wasn't a simple question. She replied with a question: "So is it difficult?"

I wanted to give her a hard punch or something.

"Simple" is different from "Difficult". We weren't talking about how easy the question is. Or probably that's what she meant. Besides, the simplest tasks are commonly the hardest to do. Like all you need to do was say sorry. Simple, ain't it? Then why is it so hard to say?

Besides, who does she think she is? She's my aunt just that. A closed-minded person to add. We tried reasoning with her, we did but what's right and good for her is someone like herself.

I protected my imouto. You can even say I protected my aunt...from myself. Of course I had to go light on her or I'd be punished by my parents ^^;; I have a sharp tongue, I have to admit. A lot of people can't stand up against it. And even when I'm holding back a lot of it, people still get hurt...so I just shut up. No biggie. People can't take the truth and when I lash out on others that the only thing I tell. Nothing but that, and that's probably the reason why they get hit head on by a train.

The scene with my aunt is a bit vague but I have so many thoughts running through my head that I can't even organize them. Be thankful that I can put something here XD XD XD

I just don't like my aunt, okay? I hate people who try to be good and force people to be like them. They're the type of people who try to buy their way through people. They know they can't do that but with a bit of bribery and blackmailing here and there, they can see that they can have their way. And that's what they want even though they can see that it's futile. People only see what they want to see.

Hey, I know she has her good side but with all the masks and misconceptions she tried to force to everyone, it's making the light fade away.

Okay, this post has become quite LONG. Maybe just one last thing...ne?

Hmm...well...we got our "sample" annual pictures. I don't really know how to judge people's looks XD I suck at it. And I don't care about it either. But then a lot of people said that my photos were...uh...cute...????? But take my word, it sucks. I suck. Everything does XD

So that should be it. Yes, it should be. I'll just post something else next time...once the PC is fixed.