Well, this PC...is...well...sllllooooooowwwwwww; extremely, surely, overly, worse-than-a-turtle-with-a-broken-leg slow. Dad says there's some sort of virus here...so this one's gonna be reformatted again; tomorrow, I suppose. And after this computer is fixed, I'll be moving to my new home :D I'll redirect this one to that.

I know a lot of people will tell me to keep my tabulas but sadly, li'l 'ol me can't keep more than one journal...even though I have my own lj (don't bother looking at it, there's nothing there). The only reason I have one is because these two have been "inviting" me. They say livejournal layouts (or whatever it's called) are one of the hardest to manage. That's another reason why I have one. I wanna see how hard it really is *nod nod* Anyway, I can't bear to have journals of mine forgotten or not used or empty or become like a ghost (always there but never seen XD). I'm already having trouble keeping this blog up, much less keep another one. Oh well. I can always delete my lj.

Anyway, let's change the subject.

So, one day, I went down and sat in front of the computer. My sisters happily informed me that the PC was running slow like hell and that I would surely be pissed off and kill the darn thing...being usually the first to beat the keyboard (and monitor on some occassions) to death. But then, I was kinda disoriented at the moment. Besides, I wanted to prove them wrong. So I continued and used the computer anyway.

Well, they were right. It was slow (like you click "Start" and you wait for 15mins just to get the PC to respond). And the pages continued to show "Cannot Find Server" again and again. I expected myself to scream my cursed life to the world but it didn't happen.

It was surprising and I felt pleased with myself because I wasn't shouting curses to the PC...like what I usually do to items that won't work for me -- we're all (please note the sarcasm ebbing from that) SO close to each other that I've given them names: meet Mousey-man and Boardy-keyboy.

My mom once told me I had an "artist's temper". It was written on that assignment my parents had to do for CSL. I've been asking a lot of people this: what is an artist's temper????? I figured it had something to do with my constant conversation with the house appliances ^^;;

Of course, though, there were some moments that I wanted to get the kitchen knife and throw it towards this PC but hey, I'm happy I had control. What was irritating was that my sisters kept insisting that I was angry at this computer. Oh no, I wasn't. I was angry at them for even asking!!!!

Well, I passed that test of patience XD

Oh, and another came to me today.

My imouto and okaasan had a voice concert to go to in UP because my imouto's piano teacher was gonna be in it. But since today was the Ateneo GS fair...and my otouto going to that school...okaasan ended up being too exhausted to go to the concert.

(I'm a bad child. I didn't go to the fair at all XD)

So, okaasan asked me to take her place instead.

I wasn't doing anything nor did I have plans but I was really pissed off. Sure I understand her predicament. Sure, I'd go to any concert they want me to. I have no whims against music. I love it, no matter what kind of music it is. The problem is...they asked me to go at the spur of the moment.

I hate it when people around me schedule things that include me without telling me beforehand. I'm a "planning" type of person. I always have plans, always. I never leave NOR do anything without plans.

It's not about having things organized. In fact, it's okay for me if they don't follow the plan. There just has to be one.

I know this is so shallow. I don't even know why I'm so angry when they told me "the dreadful news". *sigh* I guess all I'm saying is that they should think before they act. My aunt even told me that okaasan couldn't have predicted that this would happen but I disagreed. Okaasan could've predicted the consequences. Heck, I could've predicted what would've happened and I'm not even there!!!!

And besides, I had no choice. I need to go and fill okaasan's place. Whether I go or not, the results would be the same. If I went, then I'd be irritated and would probably criticize the whole show (in fact, I did). If I didn't, the whole house (except my imouto) would treat me like as if I'm the worst person alive ever for weeks just because I didn't follow their wishes and in the end, I'll be feeling bad for myself -- I get guilty too easily! Either way, I'd still feel bad.

I decided to go. Oh wait, I didn't. My neechan decided that I go. Hmph, and they even asked *rolls eyes* Okaasan thanked me for going in her place with that tone that I hate so much. You know, that tone that says "pity-me" along with it's "puppy-dog-eyes". Really, please don't act like you'll die without me because if you do, I really will let you die. Che, stand up and find your ground!!!! (This doesn't necessarily mean you, reader ^^;; My apolgies if you are offended)

I hate being thanked when I do something against my will. I don't deserve it. I'd rather be insulted. But then, it's not like I get thanks when I do something nice through my will *shrugs*

So, well, I went and criticized the whole show (both good and bad -- it's a critique not an insult). One thing I can conclude: the performers are good. They're not world class as of the moment but they have the potential to be.

During the intermission though, my aunt -- she's one of the closed-minded people that surround me, just like okaasan and otousan -- asked me what I think about my imouto. I told her she was IS a good person. And then she started asking me why.

I didn't want to answer her so I gave her sarcastic answers like "She's a child of God, that's why." and "She's my sister."

(Oh, and my imouto is the person you can consider as the black sheep of the family.)

I was pretty sure that the reason why my aunt was asking was because I told her my imouto was a good person. She probably wanted me to tell her how much a black sheep my imouto is *rolls eyes* And take note, my gut feeling is always right.

She asked me why I didn't want to answer such a simple question. I told her that it wasn't a simple question. She replied with a question: "So is it difficult?"

I wanted to give her a hard punch or something.

"Simple" is different from "Difficult". We weren't talking about how easy the question is. Or probably that's what she meant. Besides, the simplest tasks are commonly the hardest to do. Like all you need to do was say sorry. Simple, ain't it? Then why is it so hard to say?

Besides, who does she think she is? She's my aunt just that. A closed-minded person to add. We tried reasoning with her, we did but what's right and good for her is someone like herself.

I protected my imouto. You can even say I protected my aunt...from myself. Of course I had to go light on her or I'd be punished by my parents ^^;; I have a sharp tongue, I have to admit. A lot of people can't stand up against it. And even when I'm holding back a lot of it, people still get hurt...so I just shut up. No biggie. People can't take the truth and when I lash out on others that the only thing I tell. Nothing but that, and that's probably the reason why they get hit head on by a train.

The scene with my aunt is a bit vague but I have so many thoughts running through my head that I can't even organize them. Be thankful that I can put something here XD XD XD

I just don't like my aunt, okay? I hate people who try to be good and force people to be like them. They're the type of people who try to buy their way through people. They know they can't do that but with a bit of bribery and blackmailing here and there, they can see that they can have their way. And that's what they want even though they can see that it's futile. People only see what they want to see.

Hey, I know she has her good side but with all the masks and misconceptions she tried to force to everyone, it's making the light fade away.

Okay, this post has become quite LONG. Maybe just one last thing...ne?

Hmm...well...we got our "sample" annual pictures. I don't really know how to judge people's looks XD I suck at it. And I don't care about it either. But then a lot of people said that my photos were...uh...cute...????? But take my word, it sucks. I suck. Everything does XD

So that should be it. Yes, it should be. I'll just post something else next time...once the PC is fixed.

Lesson for the day week: "Listen to your instincts...because it tells the truth...and the future in most situations." - me to myself

Monday morning, I woke up feeling my usual drowsy self.... Reached school...and then it started. For some unknown reason, I've been having that constant nagging feeling that I've forgotten to do something very important, or there's something that I should do that would make the world end if I didn't, or there's something that's going to happen and I need to do something about it. It had bothered me so much that I usually find myself staring blankly into space. Of course I tried to put it aside the next day but still, my efforts were futile.

Then Wednesday night: Hour of Doom.

I got home, happy-go-lucky as always, and guess what greeted me?

The computer crashed. For some weird unknown reason, it had freakishly hellish crashed!!!!! All my files disappeared...for the *counts fingers* 6TH HELLISH time EVER!!!!!

Realization struck me. This was what my weird for-some-reason-always-right gut feeling was telling me: I should get back-up for my files T_T

Oh, no *shakes head* don't get me wrong. I'm not mad because my manga scans have disappeared nor am I disappointed about losing all my literary and art works. After all the times that this has happened to me, I kinda got used to watching my possessions disappear one after the other.

It was the YEARBOOK files that I was crying my life about. What'll I do now? How can I reproduce something like that again????? WHAT ABOUT MY FREAKIN' DEADLINE?!?!?!?!

Aside from that and my 2 Black Cat layouts, I'd be fine if it all vanished.

But then I knew I'd get over it anyway, so I just went upstairs, locked myself in the bedroom and found ways to let my anger out. I hate it when I'm angry. I'm still not blinded by my emotions. Every time I try to break something, the thought of what I will do once it breaks comes to my mind. Why the hell does my mind want me to think about the consequences of my actions all the time?!?!?! Can't I do something "wild" for once in my whole life?!?!?!

After around half an hour of silent anger, I realized I was hungry so I went down to eat. I was obviously pissed off so I kinda slammed my utensils on the table. My mom saw me and asked what the problem was. I told her that my files vanished. She asked me if I had back-up. I said no. Then guess what my parents said?

They were actually scolding me for not having back-up. My dad, on the other hand, seems to love it when he can call me stupid. And this is one of the situations *rolls eyes* He didn't really say it exactly like this but this is what came to me: "Why the hell are you so stupid?! Can't your brain even work?! You should've made some back-up for your files!!!!!"

I hated it. I'm not mad at them so why should they be mad at me? I was just angry, just that, at myself even...because I don't listen to what I say (see? Even I ignore myself!!!!). They don't have to tell me how stupid I am!!!! Heck, I know I'm stupid already!!!! They don't have to rub it on!!!!!!!

Anger building up on me again, I dropped my plate and went back into my room. I went down after around 10 mins, once again civil.

Thursday, the computer was fixed and, as usual, I was the one who installed everything. I don't know why but whenever my siblings install stuff on the computer, it somehow fails to work, but if I'm the one who installs it, it always works. Weird....

And that day, my fears and such were gone. There was no feeling-of-impending-danger anymore. So, I'm back to my happy-happy self :D

In fact, I promised myself that I'd stay angry until this PC of ours is broken once again...then I'd be happy XD But hey, it never works. I've always wanted to learn how to stay angry for even just half a day *shrugs* Oh well.

I'll try and get my files back.... If I don't then that means, well...I'm cursed.

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Mushroom: Hmm...well...no, I never said that you were doing everything for yourself. Of course I know you care for the class! I'm just saying that you also care about your reputation. Just that. Nothing else. There's something that you're forgetting, that you don't see...and I'm not the one to tell you what it is. Maybe if you see it once again, the stress will disappear. Well, I can't make myself mad at you. I can't get mad at my friends because they've done so much for me. I don't want to give them additional trouble XD Anyway, about the HaoYoh one? Sure, I will...once I ink it...or something like that XD

Millia-san, Akiko-san, Anna-san: XD I'm flattered ^^;; Thanks for the compliments about my drawing. My 3rd try is better...because I've actually spent time on the drawing, not just sketch it roughly then ink...like what I did with that XD It's here. Ngyek!!!! Yabang ko na ha!!!

Erised-san: Hai, hai, results are the only "impending danger" that'll reach me...soon. Hope to pass!!! And thanks for the comment!!!

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So...this is all...^^;; See ya!

After spending exactly P257.25 on different kinds of pens (and replacing that sign pen of mine that I accidentally broke in half...I kneeled on it *shrugs*), I finally got excited enough to finish an artwork XD

I was a little envious of my clubmates inking their artworks...coz it looks so nice...and mine sucks like hell. That's why I decided to try inking. Never 'inked' before in my whole life...so that was my first try. I think it turned out better than expected.... Dunno about you guys.... Wanna see??? I'll let you see anyway so I shouldn't bother asking ^^;;

Lesee...ah...here.

Well, makapal ang mukha ko ngayon eh :D

The ACET yesterday...was...well...easy...? Okay, it is...as long as you disentegrate every particle of Mathematics in the test. Yeah, I have to admit, Math was the hard part ;P

Oh well, what's done is done.

Yeah, I walked Mush to the tricycle (motorcyle + side car = filipino form of transportation) terminal.... La lang.... After that...well...stupid me XP It was dark ... and gloomy ... and dark ... and scary ... and dark because we were dismissed at 6pm. And for some weird reason, I decided to take a short cut on my way home. And it just so happens that that shortcut I chose was...lit in a too-scary-for-comfort fashion: there was only one lamp post in that winding road and it was surrounded with creepy growth, the kind that you see in never-touched, never-seen, never-survived-from areas; and there was a DARK, and I mean DARK creek going right under the road; and the only source of people-sight are at the start of the road, and at the end.

There was nobody around let alone an empty red car...which was standing right under a yellow, flickering bulb.

I decided to turn back and take the longer road...but then, a motorcycle appeared. No, actually...all I saw was it's front light...and I knew it was the guard but the moment that I saw it coming towards me...and NOT leaving me alone...I freaked out and dashed through the shortcut. Good thing I didn't scream my heart out XD

Then, this priest decided to jump out of the dark. No, still no scream. Just a sudden increase of pace in my walk.

And finally, I was able to breath when I reached my barangay.

Actually, the creepy part point of the whole story is that cats are starting to flock over me *nod nod* You see, I love cats but they rarely come to me.

Anyway, today was USTET day. And today is a happy day. I have no more upcoming tests~!!!! No more entrance exams~!!! YAY~!!!

Well, as expected USTET was easy like hell. I literally slept due to boredom...and the fact that I slept at 11pm the night before XD

I'm just not excited with UST and Ateneo, kasi. Di tulad nung UP. I can feel the "field trip" air!!!! But with the latter, not even the thought of having the exam -_-;;

Oh, and I met an old friend of mine. She was my so-called "best friend" during prep to gr.3 but, of course, we drifted apart and she changed schools. We were in the same room; she was sitting behind me. I smiled and said a few words and that was all. The one that I really talked to was this seatmate of mine whose name I didn't know. She didn't know my name either *shrugs* We just...well...exchanged sarcastic comments in my "rocking" chair. Really, the chair I was sitting on is exactly like a rocking chair *nod nod*

Anyway, I commuted on my own, for the first time evah! from a place so far away from home that I can't walk it on my own!!! Yeah, I commuted from UST!!!! YAY~!!! And I didn't get lost!!! Awww....

My mom taught me how to and I tried hard not to look lost *nod nod* but I seem to have attracted an "earring snatcher" because for the 2nd time in my life, someone from the same jeepney that I was on was snatched. Everyone reacted wildly. I reacted...like this: *blink blink*

Okie dokie, next I took the Megatren. At dun lumabas ang pagka-ignorante ko!!!!! XD I was standing in front of that ticket machine thing for 10mins, just staring and staring, and holding that P20 bill in my hands; in front of my face were the instructions. Still, I stared, looking stupid and all. Then this man, who I suppose is a worker of the train approached and helped me. Okay, ticket acquired.

But of course, my stupidity couldn't have lasted there. I seemed to have left my brain at UST.

I walked around with the ticket in my hand, staring at the signs and failing miserably to follow 'em...because I was trying to put the ticket on the "red X" thingy XDDD

After minutes of going back and forth the platform, I finally succeeded in finding the right one. So, yeah, I got to my destination. And now, for a show of brains. Everyone, as in everyone, was squeezing themselves onto that escalator. I stood there and stared. But luckily, my brain started working again. It must've caught up with me. I moved past them and walked up the stairs which was standing right beside them, deserted like hell.

Well, at least I learned how to walk...ne?

Oh, how time flies, I need to sleep now. School tomorrow ^^;;

And message for Mushroom: You know, you've been mystified about my birthday for so long...when in fact...it's right there *points at her profile* "...became a nuisance to world overpopulation on 10.22.1988..." Oh, and another thing - no offense meant, what I will say is something I always say to my imouto - Ang bulag, di marunong makakita. XDDDD PIIIISUUU~!!!!

Well...I got sick on Wednesday...but with the inhuman body system that I have, I was already fine the day afterwards :D

*shrugs* Dunno why but I was always immune to "long-term" sickness. And whenever I'm asked to rest, I always end up playing XD

Anyway, because I was sick during Wednesday, my parents stopped me from going to school on Thursday and Friday. At first, I was really pleased to finally get noticed XD (sorry, KSP ako ng kaunti, eh). In fact, they didn't notice me at all when I got home. The only time that they actually remembered (of course this is an exaggeration) that I lived in this house was at approximately 7:20 in the evening. But hey, that's my life here. With all the times they've ignored my existence, I'm actually starting to believe that I can turn invisible *shrugs* Oh, but don't think that I'm upset with it, okay? I'm used to it so much that it really doesn't matter anymore. I just laugh my heart out :D

Back to the story....

So, I was pleased to have my parents actually talk to me with worried voices but soon, they were asking about how I was doing with the "ACET tag" in the end. By that time, I was starting to think that they were worried about mostly about the ACET rather than me -_-;; Hey, that's the school they all want me to go anyway.

Of course I didn't say anything. They'll always find ways to cover up their mistakes. The problem with my parents is that they think we're blaming them for things that are happening here but in fact we don't.

Oh well, that's how it is *shrugs*

Ah, I haven't studied for the ACET yet XP And I have USTET tomorrow. It's not like I'm aiming to get to UST anyway. No offense to those who go there. My apologies *bows*

So...how about we talk about my ability to become invisible?

I'm not the type of person that people can remember. Maybe because I don't have a "striking" personality or whatever it is. Sure, I'm eccentric but for some unknown reason, it's already automatic for me to try and lie low.

Even to my friends, I usually need to say something three times before I'm actually heard. No, I'm not mad at them. I've already accepted the fact that I'm inconspicuous. It's just that sometimes I would really really be happy if they listen to me.

Actually, I'm counting on my friends to...well...you know...see me when I'm invisible. It's because here in the house, they really don't listen at all. The worst part about it is that when they don't listen to me, they suddenly blame me for not talking at all when in fact, I have been talking all the time.

I've talked about this with my imouto but then she thinks that I'm approaching the whole thing negatively. No, it's the other way around. I'm really positive about it.

If you're asking why I'm talking about this when I'm fine with it, well then...I just want to talk about it. There are just some instances that even though you're fine with a problem, you just really want to blab about the whole thing...and this is one of them...ne?

Anyway...

CONGRATULATIONS TO MUSHROOM!!!! She finally learned when my birthday is :D After years of not knowing, knowledge has finally dawned upon her!!! YAY!!! Sayang!!! I let my birthday slip kasi, eh!

Take note: I really mean it. Congratulate Mushroom. I'm serious about it *nod nod*

It's not everyday you see someone close to me who knows when my birthday is. It's the weirdest thing in the world. Most of the people I'm really close with don't know when my birthday is (of course, I know theirs ^_^) And then, people who I really don't know that much, KNOW birthday. And my friends find ways to learn my birthdate...like asking my imouto for example XD Desperate ba?

Anyway, it's already past 12, and I need to go to Ateneo already...even though it's only a five-minute walk from my house. Good luck to everyone who'll take the ACET and USTET!!!! GANBATTE MINNA-SAN DESU~!!!

We got our cards today....

No, I'm not disappointed about my grades.... You see, well...I kinda forgot that today was card distribution.... And well...my parents had to rush to school just to get our cards...and now...they're mad at us for forgetting XD

Not only that, they're mad at me for getting low grades on 3 subjects: Eco, Filipino and Health ^^;;

I don't really hate Eco.... I just hate the teacher. She's our club moderator and that's the reason why I hate her *nod nod* It's just that she looks down on our batch. She's biased like hell!!! Not only, that she acts like she does everything in our club but in fact, she's just there so that we'll be allowed to have a club. And I hate the way she looks at the class when she teaches. It's like as if she's saying "Don't even bother to understand this. I know you can't." And I can't help but get pissed off during her class.

But of course, being the goody-goody person that I am, I still greet her every time I see her. I'm hoping that one day she won't look down on us so much T_T

And thus, came my hatred for Eco and the constant feeling of ditching and failing the whole subject...but I figured it would be more troublesome to get my parents angry at me for life rather than my Eco teacher.

And Filipino? Another teacher problem. I know that El Fili is a good story and of course, I would love to read it. I was raised to never watch Filipino movies nor read Tagalog books. As far as I know, my parents never really showed us Filipino arts *shrugs* That's why I find it hard to really go past the "Filipino-works-suck" thing...but of course, I think lots of pinoys are talented! Look at you guys! And a lot of other pinoys out there!!! Ne? Ne? Ne?

But I only find it hard to focus on Filipino novels. Other than that, my brain works fine.

And...Health. Actually my grade was supposed to be 97...but I'm irresponsible. I didn't couldn't (nobody buys magazines or newspapers here) pass any health articles so my grade had to be dropped my 20 points. I didn't believe it at first but hey, there ain't I a thing I can do about it. Besides, there's still this quarter.

Not only that, our teacher wanted answers that were exactly as what we have in our notes. Too bad for me, my notes are always cut short and are "translated" into my own understanding. And I usually prevent copying "practical" notes...like safety measures for example...which is just what Health is all about T_T

And what's the shock all about?

Well, I never took school seriously. The only subjects that I really REALLY study for (even if it's just a peek in my always bare notebook) are English, Math and Physics. Of course, I was rewarded with high grades - they're all within 90. Actually, all of my grades are within 90...except those 3.

(If I'm right...grades within 90 are A and A+ or was it B's? Basta banda diyan!)

It was a real heart attack! Sure, without me being serious with studies, I've always prevented myself from getting anything within the line of 7 but I've never really gotten line of 9's except in Math and English.

So, all in all, I'm part of the top ten in the class O.O

Sounds like a bunch of crap from a big-headed (let me use this word in a wrong way XD) jerk...ne? No, this is all an introduction to what I'm about to say now.

I guess I should be celebrating for getting high grades. I guess I should be screaming to the whole world how happy I am...the only problem is...I'm not.

No, I'm not disappointed with my grades. I'm not even aiming for higher ones (except with Eco, Fil and Health ^^;; ). I can't be disappointed because I wasn't aiming for any grades at all. I feel that I don't deserve any of these

I didn't work hard. I threw my books aside and obssessed myself with internet and TV. Heck, I was the queen of CRAMMING!!!!

I really don't deserve it. I really, really, REALLY don't deserve to get these grades. I should approach my adviser and ask for a deduction *_*

I asked for a grade deduction in CSL because I didn't participate much in that group project of ours :D No biggie. I've always let things like wrong addition of scores go forgotten.

XD It shows how little importance I give to my grades.

I believe that your attitudes, etc. are more important *nod nod* Even though my grade was really low in interest and effort...the teachers are SSSSLLLLLOOOOOOWWWWWW!!!!!!

Oh well, my parents are mad at me because of those three grades that didn't reach the line of 9 *shrugs*

I was EXTREMELY angry at them a while ago because they were acting like I had no right to forget things *rolls eyes* But of course, with my imouto also in blame, we went to our room and had an "anger management" session. ^_^ Talks with my imouto always make me calm down.

Oh, and everyone thinks that my imouto and I repel each other. *LOL* If that happens, then the world ends XD Coz you see, there's always someone asking if she and I are close.

[SOCIALS]

Erised-san: As you can see, I only hate Eco because of the teacher...but not the subject itself. And ... politics ... politicians ... governments ... S.U.C.K. End of discussion.

Midoriko-san: Politicians are liars~!!!!! (maybe not all of 'em, but surely most of 'em)

Crimson-san: Oh...new piece of information...so that's what a raspberry is XD Agreed. Cameras are evil...but don't have a phobia of it ^^;;

Mushroom-chan: Hai, hai, Eco is not just politics. It just concerns it XD Remember when you told me that I'd be fit to be a bankrupter banker (or something like that)? Well, I may have a habit of fixing other people's money but I hate to be around it. Masaya ang buhay pag muhka kang walang pera. Walang hihingi sa iyo. Walang mangho-hold-up. Walang gastos. :D

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Okie dokie. I need to finish my CSL project now. So...see ya!

We had our annual pic taken today!!!! :D

In fact, I shouldn't be smiling, being a person who hates cameras with passion...mirrors to add XD

Not only that, I was a staffer. Sure, that would mean that I would get to skip the whole day and do absolutely nothing...about school subjects. I seriously thought that we would have a happy, happy do-nothing day...but man, was I wrong!!!

I had to change earrings, necklaces, togas and such all through-out the day. My back ached like hell. We (meaning the other staffers and I) were in such a hurry that we rarely noticed that we had to eat.

We didn't really have to hurry and all. In fact, we had all the time in the world. Not only that, we wanted things to be slow so that we wouldn't have to go to our Eco class. Dunno what came into our minds that we made everything nice and fast *shrugs*

By lunch time, I was feeling a little dizzy but the joy of having every student finished overcame it. The only ones left were...us.

But hey, being the ones who wanted the WHOLE day off, we sorta...kinda...made chit-chat with the camera man, make-up artists, hair stylists and this certain man who just stood and watched the whole picture session (I honestly don't know why he was there XD). And thus, we had wasted around two hours just to take all the pictures needed.

After that, we just roamed around the school grounds, trying to be as slow as possible...because we were still gonna reach Eco T_T All our efforts are wasted!!!! Naabot pa rin namin ang Eco!!!!

Luckily, we got there about 10 mins before the whole subject was finished. We missed the quiz (and I didn't study for that...because I HATE our Eco teacher!!!!...and because I was irresponsible >_<) but we're gonna have the make-up one tomorrow.

Honestly though, what the hell do I care about price this and price that?!?!?!?! I'm not aspiring to be an economist!!! In fact, I HATE politics!!!! Everything sucks in there. Everybody's a liar and they don't want to admit that they are liars. Ah, basta! I HATE POLITICS!!!!!!!!

The only reason I'm required to study that is because if I don't , I can't pass highschool. Just that. Nothing else.

Anyway, we're gonna watch El Fili tomorrow at Ateneo. My parents work there. I live near there. Can I not go back to school anymore? I'm just gonna take myself farther from home!!!!

But, of course, the school would say something like it would be their fault if something bad happened to me blahblahblah. I'll go home with my otouto ^_^ Then I won't be alone...ne?

Half day again tomorrow. I should start making my CSL project already. Dunno why I can't put it down in words. I already have the whole plot ready yet nothing comes out when I type try to type. Maybe lack of inspiration?

*sigh* I wanna see Hao-chan in action again.... I wanna see him loose his cool. I miss Shaman King. Of course, I get to see the show in GMA...but only on weekends. I wanted to watch it to get my drive back on my Mankin fic...that's been on hiatus for God-knows-when. I lost the will to continue it when my 4-page long (font size 9, Arial XD) chapter finally learned to make magic. It vanished into thin air. And that was the fourth time that it happened. And I lost all will to rewrite the whole thing again. Oh well. Long gone is the hardwork I've put in it T_T I'm not dead yet...now am I?

Oh, and speaking of death, can everyone here NOT greet me on my birthday? I want to check if I'm still alive ^^;; No, no, it's just something I spotted in a Hallmark© birthday e-card. It said something that if there's a party and nobody's greeting/singing you Happy Birthday, then you better make sure you're alive. The moment I saw that, I wanted it to be sent to me on my birthday *eyes sparkle*

And no, I'm not telling you to send it to me. I just found it cute XD

Anyway, let's change the topic.

You know, yesterday evening, I asked my sister to lend me her alarm clock so that I could wake up earlier than usual.

(When I have an alarm clock, I usually wake up earlier than the alarm and wait for it to alarm. Dunno why *shrugs*)

So, I took the alarm clock, set the alarm at 4am and placed it near my head, just under a pillow. I woke up at what I assumed as 3:30am and waited for the clock to alarm. I put the clock on my chest so...well...I just wanted to see if I would jump up in surprise but I never do

But since it took soooooo long, I fell back to sleep again. I woke up and looked at the clock. You know what it said? 10 o'clock!!!!!!

I jumped up in panic, eyes wide. I couldn't believe that I had slept for only one hour!!!!! I quickly rushed to the wall clock hanging in our room and blinked to adjust my eyes to the darkness.

It was 5am. That alarm clock was wrong. I must've nudged the arms when I put it on my chest XP

So much for panic -_-;;

I had the feeling the night before that I wouldn't be able to get out of my bed at the time I wanted: either I was too lazy to get up or soemthing else happens. And my gut feeling was right ^^;;

Oh well, I gotta go now and sleep. It's already past 9pm here and my body's tired because of the whole annual pic taking.

Okie dokie! See ya! Oh, and btw, thanks for all the comments about my new layout. I finally remembered how much I loved this one XD

Finally put up the new layout!!! And yeah, the font is bigger that what I usually use.... I'm being overwhelmed!!!! O.O

Oh well, me need to take into consideration that not everyone here has perfect eyesight. I don't either...but I don't wear glasses - not anymore ^^

I'm not sure if there was meeting today (YM) with the staffers...but I sorta woke up left bed late. I missed it XD (coz I woke up at 7am...but...well...kinda ignored the meeting and slept again - bad Himitsu!!! BAD!!!)

Tell me if there's something wrong with the layout okie? Coz I was suppose to put up a spider layout...but well...sorta ruined it ^^;; That's why this is here right now :D

Oh, and the comment box still has a problem. I don't know if I can fix it but I hope I can. Gotta go and make experiments!!! <<< already fixed that

Ay.... There's date and time with the comment box pala >_< Never noticed it *shakes head* Baka, baka XD

Hmm...what to talk about...what to say...? Ah yeah, now I remember: BIONICLE HAS TAKEN OVER OUR COMPUTER!!!!!

Anyone know that game (or whatever it is), Bionicle? Coz that's the desktop wallpaper right now *nod nod* No, I have no problem with it...but when my otouto started changing it once per half an hour, it started to get irritating.

It was because my dad brought home this Bionicle game that my brother plays as of now - but I'm the one who solves the puzzles.

I LOVE PUZZLES~!!!! Whatever type it is, I still love it! But they never buy me any of those anyway -_-;; My imouto got one before. It consisted of about a thousand pieces but the day after she got it (and before I had the chance to play with it), there were about half a dozen pieces missing. And I lost the will to finish it T_T

My posts for this month are sooooooooooooo little. I get a little disappointed. I should find time to blog more or the layout would be put to waste *shakes head*

Back to the layout, this would be easier to view coz you there aren't much scrollbars, ne? This one's very simple but I really like it

Oh, and please comment or tag if you don't find your link. I might've messed that a bit.

Now, let's make some socials, ne?

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Crimson-san: No, not really XD Coz you see, every time I try to make something funny, I end up beating myself up to death then an anvil falls on my head >.< But maybe that only pertains to literary works? Anyway, yup, anger is hard to suppress, but it's easier to put into other things, like breaking pencils or ripping paper...those little things, ne?

Cheska-san: Yup, yup. Know what you mean. I've actually replied to you, but I'll just add a couple of things. People just find it easier to lean onto others. Read something like this in our English book: "There are two types of people: those who lift and those who lean; with one lifter there are ten who lean." or something like that. Can't remember it much XD Anyway, the lifters just have to 'teach' those who lean to lift, ne? I'm probably going in circles @.@

Kurayami-san: Thanks. I might really need good luck, and I'm too excited to make the autobio to actually make it (does that make sense?). Anyway, I'll try to comment on your blog as often as I could. Sorry for not being able to *bows*

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Ack! It's already 1 in the afternoon!!! How time flies! I should get my ass to work on the yearbook now!!! And make myself do that Algebra assignment of ours, but I doubt that I will anyway.

See ya! Till I blog again!

I'm not really sure if anyone will care (it won't matter anyway) but I have a reason for the being able to blog much lately. It starts with the letter 'R' and ends with the letter 'Y'. Can you guess?

R . E . S . P . O . N . S . I . B . I . L . I . T . Y

I'm the Arts Editor of our school paper and...being the one who suggested letting the Arts section do the layouts...I'm the one doing it. It really isn't a problem for me. The REAL problem is...the staffers.

They've been given a deadline and why the hell couldn't they give their articles in time?!?!?! They don't even have as much work as we, 4th years, have!!!! And yet we're the ones who pass on time.

Actually, if you talk about the section I'm heading, they all pass on time; most of them, with advanced articles/works. Maybe because I'm the one leading them??? Nah, probably not. Sure, I make instant plans so when the club meeting's here, I give them their jobs and the deadline. No whims, nothing at all, because its all there - complete with answers to their questions.

In fact, they're all having it easy! They don't have to worry about the school paper being released on time. They don't have to worry about whether the layout was finished or not and things like that. Last year, we had to make ammends for the lack of...uh...duty (?) of the 4th years so we ended up doing the whole work.

IMO, I have to right whatsoever to tell my clubmates to pass their articles on time, give deadlines, etc. You see, I act like a co-editor-in-chief mainly because the EIC and the Associate are my two closest friends. I give reminders to everyone...even the editors...XD

Heck, I only have power on the Arts section and yet I do those. One day, I'm pretty sure someone will shout at me and tell me to lay off, stop acting like someone high or something like that...and I'm prepared to say thank you ^_^

Well, I'm just irritated at the lack of responsibility of people around me. What the hell, I lack responsibility as well. My nee-chan says its basic psychology: what you find bad in other people also exists within you.

Anyway, the next job is the yearbook staffer thing.

I'm happy that they voted me as part of the staff but as of now, I think I'm regretting it ^^;; There's too much to do. Apparantly, they listen to me.

You'd think that was a good thing but...I don't have any position at all - not that I wanted to have any because I work best as a follower...who...uh...somehow leads???

Sure, I'm glad that they approved the themes that I gave (because I was the only one who gave one...no biggie) but...I don't know.... Is it just me or the other staffers REALLY don't have much to do?

Anyway, we're using photoshop for the layouts, which means I have to learn how to use it properly XD I plan to jump away from the traditional formats and create something new. I just find it boring to follow the traditions all the time. If only the would let me, I'd make our yearbook's shape into a triangle...but they say that would be informal -_-;;

I have millions of ideas anyway so running out of 'em ain't a problem. The problem would probably be with the staff. I HOPE we can give everything on the deadline.

I have a big issue with dealines and sorts...because if I can't pass on the deadline, I won't pass at all - and I'll take all the blame they want me to take. That's why I want to make fake deadlines...para mapa-aga.

Sorry for all the complaints. I don't think they're complaints anyway. Just a reliever.

THANK YOU for everyone who reviewed!!!!!

Oh, btw, layout will be changed on the 4th (hai, its monthly, every fourth...except on October...guess why?).

Okie dokie! My otouto's gonna play with the computer so I'll probably be able to do my autobiography on my 42nd year...CSL project. The problem is...I'm gonna die when I'm 38!!!! So how can I make an autobio then??? Oh well, one thing's for sure. I wanna make a cross-over with Mama G and Mushroom's autobio!!!! That'll be fun!!!